First off, if Puddle of Mud is out there, then the next time you visit Puddle of Mudd, you will find a half-blind old guy sitting there with his headphones on :) I already have several of their songs on the monster playlist and can't believe I didn't have blurry on that list- I have remedied that, thanks to you. Second, I know a thing or two myself about having all that love to give and losing the one you were giving it to... Or trying... So I totally get where your head has been, and I don't even know all the details of what's going on in your personal life. And finally, I admire and respect the layers of self-reflection embedded in your fictional writing, and to be honest, I'm jealous - it's a skill I wish I was better at -:)
I just knew you would appreciate the addition to your playlist! Though, I'm surprised that you know of Puddle of Mud, I think Blurry is the only one of theirs on my list. Also, I hear you on the second thing, 💔😢. And I really don't enjoy sharing personal details on the internet, but it felt like this one needed a little more than just a superficial contextualization. And you've noted my reflective writing before, I believe. I suppose you may be on to something. If I think about it I can see how I could have been a reflective mindset when I was figuring all this stuff out as a teen. I'd been working through some issues, but I find it funny how well it's carried, over the years, because it really has been many years.
I am a thinker, sometimes an overthinker, and I've learned that I tend to obsess. I sometimes wish I was better at letting things go. 😅
A generation separates us in have a lot in common all the same. I have been a fan of puddle of mud since they first came out. And if you want memories and inner dark secrets revealed through their music just go listen to their cover of old man. And we'll talk😄
I have! was it Richard C? I can't remember, been some time since I heard from 'him'. Maybe I've missed something in the chaos of subscribing to 150+ people on here. I unfortunately don't always get around to reading everything...
I know the feeling it was Richard c poff. But I haven't posted there since daisy died. My introduction to that newsletter about our relationship is all you need to know to understand that puddle of mud Song
But I know you're busy. You don't need to go through all that just know. I have songs that speak to me as well. From the good stuff to the bad and everything in between... Sometimes that stuff shows up in a paragraph here and there in my work and yours as well❤️🩹
I can understand that. But I have found it interesting that the posts I am in two minds about sharing because they feel a bit too 'revealing' are often the ones that create the best engagement from people in comments. I think we all like to read something that we understand is from the heart. It's a tough one as a fiction writer because we are used to hiding behind our characters 😂. I am in awe of your dedication and consistent output. My story writing has taken a back seat in my life lately and I feel I am in 'avoidance' mode a bit. Keep writing Jenny, it's great stuff ❤️
That's so true, April! This community we have here is so kind and supportive. And hiding behind my characters is something I am altogether too good at. But thankyou for your kind words, and good luck with the writing. I've been having great difficulty keeping up these days, but I know it will even out eventually. Writing is like breathing for me. It's easily the most important thing for my wellbeing that I engage in these days. I would give up a lot to make time for it, which I know isn't very healthy, but I feel like it'd be worse if I didn't write. 🤷🏻♀️
Yes I understand this completely. I can be easily defeated by a sense of not being good enough but I remind myself daily that this isn't real and all that is required of me is to enjoy the process of putting words together in different orders.
Just read your intro and back story... can't read the rest tonight, I must sleep for travel in the morning. Apparently not planned this way, but although not intended, I think your background landed at just the right time, as we are still absorbing the effects on Logan having lost Misty. To have delivered the background beforehand would have blunted the storyline too much I think. We needed to see him in the depths of dispare as you intended, which is a real and valid thing.
I agree, the background works better after the fact. I hope your travelling goes well and safely and that you are able to catch up on all your reading soon. Sleep sweetly Frank. As always, I look forward to your thoughts.
So, back home and up late / early to catch up... Finding some of the other conversation strings going on very interesting... But on to the story and 'Misty'... I really like the dedication that you have given to her in this scene! You are giving her an awareness, but not entirely, of the dynamics in play here. She knows that she is being played with and that Cathy is a threat operating in plain sight. The shower was an eye-opener for her and for us! And yet I fear she is subtlety being softened and co-opted by this velvet prison. She is giving up a lot of clues to her abilities and even knows, but can't resist the attention and 'loving' being lavished on her. I am open for whatever is coming and I don't have a clue where or how the stories are going to intersect again. I'm holding my breath in great anticipation!!!
First off, if Puddle of Mud is out there, then the next time you visit Puddle of Mudd, you will find a half-blind old guy sitting there with his headphones on :) I already have several of their songs on the monster playlist and can't believe I didn't have blurry on that list- I have remedied that, thanks to you. Second, I know a thing or two myself about having all that love to give and losing the one you were giving it to... Or trying... So I totally get where your head has been, and I don't even know all the details of what's going on in your personal life. And finally, I admire and respect the layers of self-reflection embedded in your fictional writing, and to be honest, I'm jealous - it's a skill I wish I was better at -:)
I just knew you would appreciate the addition to your playlist! Though, I'm surprised that you know of Puddle of Mud, I think Blurry is the only one of theirs on my list. Also, I hear you on the second thing, 💔😢. And I really don't enjoy sharing personal details on the internet, but it felt like this one needed a little more than just a superficial contextualization. And you've noted my reflective writing before, I believe. I suppose you may be on to something. If I think about it I can see how I could have been a reflective mindset when I was figuring all this stuff out as a teen. I'd been working through some issues, but I find it funny how well it's carried, over the years, because it really has been many years.
I am a thinker, sometimes an overthinker, and I've learned that I tend to obsess. I sometimes wish I was better at letting things go. 😅
A generation separates us in have a lot in common all the same. I have been a fan of puddle of mud since they first came out. And if you want memories and inner dark secrets revealed through their music just go listen to their cover of old man. And we'll talk😄
Oh my! I actually do know a few more, this is one fun rabbit hole.
Looking it up right now. 😉
I assume you have seen the newsletter I created in my father's honor... As Forrest Gump would say, that's all I got to say about that haha
I have! was it Richard C? I can't remember, been some time since I heard from 'him'. Maybe I've missed something in the chaos of subscribing to 150+ people on here. I unfortunately don't always get around to reading everything...
I know the feeling it was Richard c poff. But I haven't posted there since daisy died. My introduction to that newsletter about our relationship is all you need to know to understand that puddle of mud Song
But I know you're busy. You don't need to go through all that just know. I have songs that speak to me as well. From the good stuff to the bad and everything in between... Sometimes that stuff shows up in a paragraph here and there in my work and yours as well❤️🩹
Thank you for sharing some of your own life here too ❤️
🫣 Scary post this one. I was somewhat regretting airing my personal baggage. But this makes me feel a lot better about it. Thanks April. 🧡
I can understand that. But I have found it interesting that the posts I am in two minds about sharing because they feel a bit too 'revealing' are often the ones that create the best engagement from people in comments. I think we all like to read something that we understand is from the heart. It's a tough one as a fiction writer because we are used to hiding behind our characters 😂. I am in awe of your dedication and consistent output. My story writing has taken a back seat in my life lately and I feel I am in 'avoidance' mode a bit. Keep writing Jenny, it's great stuff ❤️
That's so true, April! This community we have here is so kind and supportive. And hiding behind my characters is something I am altogether too good at. But thankyou for your kind words, and good luck with the writing. I've been having great difficulty keeping up these days, but I know it will even out eventually. Writing is like breathing for me. It's easily the most important thing for my wellbeing that I engage in these days. I would give up a lot to make time for it, which I know isn't very healthy, but I feel like it'd be worse if I didn't write. 🤷🏻♀️
Yes I understand this completely. I can be easily defeated by a sense of not being good enough but I remind myself daily that this isn't real and all that is required of me is to enjoy the process of putting words together in different orders.
Just read your intro and back story... can't read the rest tonight, I must sleep for travel in the morning. Apparently not planned this way, but although not intended, I think your background landed at just the right time, as we are still absorbing the effects on Logan having lost Misty. To have delivered the background beforehand would have blunted the storyline too much I think. We needed to see him in the depths of dispare as you intended, which is a real and valid thing.
I agree, the background works better after the fact. I hope your travelling goes well and safely and that you are able to catch up on all your reading soon. Sleep sweetly Frank. As always, I look forward to your thoughts.
So, back home and up late / early to catch up... Finding some of the other conversation strings going on very interesting... But on to the story and 'Misty'... I really like the dedication that you have given to her in this scene! You are giving her an awareness, but not entirely, of the dynamics in play here. She knows that she is being played with and that Cathy is a threat operating in plain sight. The shower was an eye-opener for her and for us! And yet I fear she is subtlety being softened and co-opted by this velvet prison. She is giving up a lot of clues to her abilities and even knows, but can't resist the attention and 'loving' being lavished on her. I am open for whatever is coming and I don't have a clue where or how the stories are going to intersect again. I'm holding my breath in great anticipation!!!